What its like to love me…

While I will never have the answer to the question, what is it like to love me? I know rest in the peace of allowing others to decide that answer. Knowing that some may leave, but the ones who stay show me my true purpose.

What I know so far: Words for my younger and future self.

No matter who you are or what happened to you you are worthy of healing. Never healing allows the pain to win. You are strong enough! Friends and moments come and go. Your worth is not determined by the number of people who consistently show up. Everyone is fighting their own battle. Sometimes you areContinue reading “What I know so far: Words for my younger and future self.”

I want your opinion

I thought this would be the best way to ask…. I began EMDR in February. The journey has been life changing thus far. I would love to share the journey with you all, but truthfully not sure how many people would be interested. EMDR is eye movement desensitization reprocessing therapy. This intense therapy is usedContinue reading “I want your opinion”

Hero Heart

Bruce Wayne said in The Dark Knight Rises “A hero can be anyone. Even a man doing something as simple and reassuring as putting a coat around a little boy’s shoulders to let him know the world hadn’t ended.”  I want you to know, even if it feels like right now, the world has ended, it hasn’t. The stars can only shine in darkness, but it doesn’t make the darkness less scary while your eyes adjust to see the light.

This side of the door

Where life is messy, grammar is far from perfect and healing is priority. The thought of typing this blog entry is causing immediate pounding in my chest. I realize this entry will come as a shock to so many people. More than that writing out all these moments and thoughts seems to be more difficultContinue reading “This side of the door”

Grief, loss and hope.

Why write what you think people need? The real stories are where the true survival guide is found. No one can heal their outtakes through your highlight real 💙 I have an entire note pad of story ideas. Everyday I add something more to it, in hopes that I will be ready to write thoseContinue reading “Grief, loss and hope.”

Sweet Beautiful Soul

Sweet, beautiful soul, I know you are weary. I know your mind could have never comprehended the pain, sadness, frustration, and grief you would come to know. The day began like any other day, didn’t it my dear? You woke up struggling to get out of bed, or you jumped up from the bed withContinue reading “Sweet Beautiful Soul”

Marco Polo

Also seen on TheMighty https://themighty.com/2021/07/being-playful-and-letting-go-of-my-anxiety/ Our city puts on a large firework show on July 3rd. My husband is a police officer in town and works during this event every year. He is the social butterfly of our relationship. If you know me even a little you know I struggle with large crowds and toContinue reading “Marco Polo”

Path to loving you

One of the most difficult things I have ever heard from someone was along the lines of “I have never met anyone else who is so kind, compassionate and caring, but has no idea how to love. You are incapable of loving anyone and incapable of allowing someone to love you.” Those words have stuckContinue reading “Path to loving you”

Finding peace outside of the fire

Expectations are incredibly comfortable for everyone around us.  We have been surrounded in a society of expectations. We have grown to believe that making others uncomfortable is unacceptable. Our job especially as adults is to ACT LIKE AN ADULT! We are taught not to ask why; we often tell our children “because I said so.”Continue reading “Finding peace outside of the fire”